Last night, my roommate and good friend called me regimented.
She is without a doubt, completely right about this. It's a huge fault of mine.
We were talking about a happy hour that we have planned today. I was saying how much I am looking forward to it, even though I have lots to get done tonight.
I have a tendency to immediately want to say no to things. I get this from my dad. My mom has always that.
I keep myself on a pretty strict schedule during the week. Work, lunch at home, gym, quick shower, over to ______'s house, home by 10:30, bed. If I don't go to the gym, it is errands after work. I rarely ever come home after work and just relax. Maybe I need to. Maybe I would feel less hectic if I took one day a week to just not do anything or go anywhere.
On the weekends, I realize I need to accomplish things because I spend a lot of time at ______'s house during the week. But when the weekend comes around, I have been my own drill sergeant all week and I just want to lay on the couch and zone out with the TV.
Let me make some things clear:
1. I realize that I am responsible for the things I choose to do and the way I spend my time.
2. My friends and family should not have to suffer, for lack of a better word, when I have run myself ragged.
3. Being cranky doesn't exactly make things any better. Get over yourself, Heather.
My mom and sister called me regimented so really I was just paying it forward. =)
ReplyDeleteDon't change because someone made you feel bad about it. Planning is good, order is good. No one is suffering because of it. I love you just the way you are and I have set a recurring calendar request to remind you of this. ;)
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